New Years. A holiday which I don't like.

The reason why I don't like New Years is because it depresses me. I actually cried on the past 2 New Years Eves. I hope I don't cry this time! But I might. I don't know yet. I'm too pessimistic to be happy on New Years. I don't see it as the start of a new year, I see it as the end of the current year. And that's sad. I don't want it to end. I enjoy writing -10 on all the dates. I'll miss seeing 10 on the dates. I know that 2010 will never happen again. I don't want to say goodbye to it. I know this may seem silly, but I just have a hard time saying goodbye to the years. I mean, it was a whole year, of course I got attached!!