Don't lie to people to try to make them feel better

It doesn't work. Especially if the person knows you're lying. Then that just makes it all worse! Why can't people just be honest? I know that everybody lies, and not one single person has been honest about everything their whole life, but purposefully lying just because you don't want to upset them is ridiculous. Don't be so afraid of letting someone know the truth! Sometimes people lie to be supportive, to comfort someone, to give them a polite opinion, or lots of other stuff, and I just don't understand why they feel the need to do this. Just be honest!! So what if it hurts their feelings? They need to know the truth!!!
So the next time your friend asks you if her outfit is cute and she looks like a complete mess, save her the embarrassment and don't let her go out looking like trash! :) haha
But in all sincerity, be honest!!

It's June!

It is now June. It's summer. Even though I've been having summer break already for a while now, because it's now June I feel like it is officially summer. Everywhere. Even though there are schools that continue into June, but not where I live so I'll just ignore that and go back to enjoying that it's summer. Since college starts later in August than high school, this is the longest summer of my life! :) 
I could never decide if I like June or July better...one of them is my favorite month. They're both extremely similar so it's hard to pick. But right now I'm happy that it's June!

Rain rain go away, Come back some other day...

Those might not be the correct lyrics. Oh well. I actually disagree with this song. I like the rain and sometimes I don't want it to go away and come back some other day. Sometimes I want it right then and there, on that day. Now of course, sometimes too much rain can be bad. Damaging and inconvenient. But it can be nice. Peaceful. Pleasant. I like rain.

What is up with the weather?

Why is it so cold in the United States of America this winter?!?! So much snow and ice and winter storms and all that extremely-not-fun stuff!! I HATE WINTER. I HATE COLD WEATHER. I want warm weather already. But it seems like we'll have to wait a long time. All over the country is so much bad winter weather :(  It needs to stop!!

Well now it's January

I like January. Because it's almost my birthday!! =)  If only it wasn't so cold..

Pearl Harbor

On December 7th, 1941, Pearl Harbor was attacked.
Moment of silence for everyone who lost their lives that day.





I love the movie Pearl Harbor. With Josh Hartnett, Ben Affleck, and Kate Beckinsale. I cry so much everytime I watch it. And that's the movie, I can't imagine what it was like in real life. And people tell me that it's just a movie, but it's not just A movie. That stuff actually happened.

I actually went to Pearl Harbor a few years ago. They had a really nice memorial. I remember a sunken battleship that had the very top of it sticking out over the water. That's how shallow the water in that part was. 

december. WTF? seriously?

So apparently it's December 2010. How this happened, I have no idea. But calendars tell me it's the 12th month of the year of 2010. I know I have absolutely horrible time perception or perspective or whatever word. Basically, it's difficult for me to keep up with time. 5 months will pass by and it feels like 1 month to me. 3 weeks will pass by in a few days. And now it's December and I still feel like it's August. So you can see why I'm so confused by the year ending in 4 weeks. It's scary. You know, I never really liked New Years. I don't like it when the year ends. It's sad. It's over and that depresses me. Why I'm like this, I have no idea. I guess I just don't like time.

Warning: This post contains a picture of blood

So I have a horrible lip biting habit.
Most people don't realize it's as bad as it really is.
I mean, I bite and rip up my lips. I tear them up. I usually bite them until they bleed. Then I lick off the blood and keep ripping.
Yes, it can hurt.
But it's a habit, I can't help it.
You don't believe me?

Yes, that's what I did today.
It looks like it'd be great for Halloween, but that's my real blood. 
I had another picture of me licking the bleeding part, where I felt like the girl on the cover of the True Blood dvd, but I thought that might have been too gross to post on the internet.

"Hey Ma, I'm going to the movies"

Today my mom told me to get a boyfriend so I won't have to pay for my own movie tickets. Ha. I love the silly things my mom says.

Sleep zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............

I have a strange sleeping schedule. Or sleep habit. I don't really know what term to use for it. Basically, my way of sleeping is not exactly normal.
When I have to go to school, basically August through May, Monday through Friday every week, I get a small amount of sleep. Usually about 6 hours. I have to wake up super early. I try to get up around 6 20 but I oversleep alot. I go to sleep usually around or past midnight. It's so difficult for me to fall asleep. I have to have silence in order to fall asleep. And my room hears everything from the rooms around me. The living room is a few steps away from my room. I can see it with my door open, it's right there. My parents like to watch tv before they go to sleep. My father also likes to play his guitar. All of the noise from the tv and my dad's irritating guitar playing keeps me up. I can not fall asleep with so much noise. Most nights I fall asleep when they go to bed. Well my mom falls asleep earlier, so I have to wait for my dad to go to sleep. During the week day, I run off of so little sleep. I fall asleep in school quite often, a skill I learned just this year. And after school, I fall asleep sometimes when I'm on the couch or on my bed. I am extremely tired all the time during the school year. It's exhausting and I feel horrible.
When I have no school, basically in the summer and any other breaks from school, I sleep alot. A ton. I get about 12 - 15 hours of sleep. I sleep for a very long time. But not so much during the night. I'm a night person, I love the nighttime. I go to sleep very late when I don't have school the next day. And then I sleep during the day. Usually on weekends during the school year, I'll go to sleep around 2, 3, or 4 am. In the summer, I go nocturnal. Literally, I'll go to sleep when the sun comes up. Around 6, 7, or 8 am. Then I sleep all day. I enjoy staying up all night. I'm not a morning person, I don't like the sun. I don't mind sleeping the day away. Of course, it can come to be a inconvenience. But when I have nothing to do that day, it doesn't bother me at all. I sleep so much when I don't have school. Some days, I spend all day in my bed. Getting up only to go to the kitchen and the bathroom. Sleeping is one of my favorite things to do. I can do it for hours. It's hard for me to fall asleep, but once I do, I'm asleep. Knocked out for hours.
So, my sleep routine is messed up. During the school year, I can't get enough sleep. During breaks, I can't stop sleeping.
I don't know what to do. I've tried to fix this, but I just can't. I always end up going back to my strange schedule. I get so proud of myself when I go to sleep early the day before school, or when I wake up before noon on the weekend. But I just can't do it everyday.So for now, I'll sleep when I can.

Black Friday?

I slept all day. My mom woke me up around 5 pm and said that we didn't go shopping.

My new glasses add instant intelligence.

I love them! I think they're super cute. They also make me feel very smart! haha :)
They are a stronger prescription, and since I wear my contacts more often, I'm used to that prescription, when I put on my new glasses, it's like "...woah".  But I'll get used to it the more I wear them.
When I was picking out glasses, I had only one requirement. They had to be black.

10-10-10

Today is October 10, 2010. It's 10-10-10 today. How cool is that? I know I get too excited about interesting dates like this, but seriously, it's really awesome!! It's not everyday that this happens, you know! It's 8 pm right now and I just realized it. I'm a little late. I looked at my Jimi clock and saw that it said it was 10/10. Then it hit me, that it's not only October 10, it's October 10, 2010!! So the date is 10/10/10. If I was in school, I'd so happily write those three 10's on every paper that I wrote on. Not that I wanted to be in school today. I had a really good day today. It was a good 10/10/10. This date will not happen again in my lifetime. And the same triple number date will only happen two more times in my lifetime. I remember the very first one, 01/01/01. I was so amazed. And now we're on the number 10. This date of ten ten ten makes me super happy :)

It's OCTOBER!!

Yes, It's October. This makes me super happy and kinda sad. Because Halloween is my favorite holiday!! I am so excited for it :)   But the part that makes me a little sad is that this is the month when it gets cold where I live. If you know anything about me, you know that I despise the cold weather. It is my arch enemy. I literally loathe being cold. I just hate how it feels. I feel it on my skin and in my bones and it's just everywhere and I can't escape it! Even in my room I have to freeze because of our damn heating/air conditioning system. And also, I hate wearing a lot of clothes. That might sound strange, but my style consists of things like halter tops, booty shorts, mini skirts, tube tops, etc. Basically I like to show some skin. In winter I can't do that. I hate how it feels to have so much clothes on; all the layers and layers of fabric surrounding me. My main goal in life is to move somewhere with my ideal temperatures. Anyway, enough ranting. I'm ridiculously excited for Halloween!! I'm currently in the process of getting a costume :D  There's an insane amount of possibilities, I just don't know what to choose! It's a hard hard decision.

9/11

I always wondered, is there a reason it was 9/11 as in the numbers 9, 1, 1? Like 911 emergency? I don't know. But it makes me wonder.
Moment of silence for all the lives lost.

Procrastination : My arch enemy

Procrastination.
Procrastination is bad.
I procrastinate.
Oh I know that's very bad.
What am I doing now?
Procrastinating.
It's my arch enemy.
I battle with it alot.
It always defeats me.
I always lose.
Wikipedia tells me procrastination is a "coping mechanism to deal with anxiety"
I must have an anxiety disorder then!
This started out as a poem,
that's why the beginning rhymed.
But I'm bad at poetry,
so I gave that up and just have been writing since.
So you get my point, that I hate procrastinating?
But it's so hard to quit, so hard to stop.
Okay this is obviously not a poem, so why am I still typing like this? Seriously now, I have a horrible habit of procrastinating. I also have bad time management, they go together you see. I wish I could find a way to not procrastinate but so far it's just been a failure. I seriously need to get better at this! Ugh I hate procrastination! Especially when it's late at night, and I have to wake up early tomorow, and I have homework I need to do. I don't know which I should hate though, the procrastination or the homework? Well for now, I'll pick the homework!!! Because if I didn't have homework, then I wouldn't have anything to procrastinate about! Okay, I just made myself feel a tiny bit better about myself.

It's September!

What? For reals. It's September. Already. Ugh. what joy. I don't think I've ever really liked this month. It's just so....bleah. I dislike the fall. And winter. So from now until a very long time from now, the weather will just be getting colder. Which I hate!!! Grrr. The only good things about September is no school on labor day and my best friend Treasure has her birthday at the end of the month. What else is cool about September?

Friday the 13th

Today was Friday the 13th. I'm not a superstitous person, but I do think that Friday the 13th is unlucky.
Well today, as I got to school, I got unbearable pains in my stomach. So I went home. And was sick to my stomach. So that was not fun. See, Friday the 13th is no joke!
Later I went to Walmart and Blockbuster. I had a movie night in the evening. It's kinda my thing. I invite a few friends and we watch a dvd and eat. Last Friday the 13th, we watched the remake of Friday the 13th. I LOVE that movie! I really want to buy it. But this time, we watched Haunting in Connecticut. (Expect a blog post about it soon). So I had a lot of fun that night. But during the day, I was suffering. So that's how Friday the 13th got me this time.

8 9 10!

So the date today is 8-9-10. August 9th, 2010. 8,9,10. How cool is that?!
I absolutely love it when the date is something cool like that. And we'll only experience it once. There will never be another August 9th, 2010. I don't know why I'm so intrigued about interesting dates. But I love it.
So happy 8-9-10 everybody!!

To pierce or not to pierce..

I LOVE lip piercings. They're amazing. They are my second favorite body piercing. (bellybutton is my first) . I've wanted a lip piercings for quite a while now, but I always thought to myself I'd never get one because there's no way it would look good. But when my earring broke, I had this idea to glue it on my face! So I stuck it on with eyelash glue right under my lip, right where I'd get a piercing. I just wanted to see what it would look like, and this was the result. I went photo crazy and took 155 pictures of me with this fake lip piercing. So apparently I liked it alot. I can't get a piercing until I'm 18, which is this January, but I don't know if I'll get a lip piercing. But I do think it looks cool. The problem I have with it is that my lips are tiny, and a stud would probably overpower my lips. Oh, and there would be a scar when I took it out. So I don't know if I'll ever get a lip piercing. But playing around with this fake one sure was alot of fun!!